I learned about the existance of fan fic during the summer of 1999. The same friend that insisted I try watching a mid-season replacement based on a silly movie I'd seen years before called Buffy the Vampire Slayer and thus got me completely hooked on said show mentioned in passing that she had read a good fan fic that I might like. Fan fic, I repeated. What is that? She explained it to me and sent me a link. I read one and then another and soon was addicted.

I've always loved to write, having spent a majority of my time in high school working on silly stories instead of paying attention in class, but the adult world had rather drained my creativity. And, to be completely honest, it wasn't really worth all the time and energy to work on original stories that no one else would ever see. After discovering fan fiction, I started to remember the episodes that I had seen where I wish something else had happened...the characters that were never explored as well as I had wished...the relationships that I would find myself wishing had happened. I adored Spike from the moment he drove into Sunnydale, that character becoming one of my favorites out of every thing I have read or seen. I have loved Willow from her first appearance in the first episode, and confess that I often found myself wishing that she'd find someone to appreciate her and love her and challenge her in the ways that the romantic in me loves to see/read. When Spike arrived, I often found myself wishing that he'd get tired of competing for Drusilla and go find himself a redhead. Yes, my affection for Willow/Spike started during season 2, even though they never had any scenes together and didn't seem at all like a couple that would work. When Lover's Walk appeared in Season 3, well, I'm sure you know my reaction to that episode. It was mixed. One of those, "See! I knew they had chemistry and would be great together!" at the same time I was like "Darn it, they had him leave and she's still stuck with Wolf Boy!" etc. Of course, I thought I was alone in the world. Hardly any of my friends or associates watched the show, much less believed that Willow belonged in a relationship with Spike.

To be truthful, I had also seen possibilities of Willow/Angel and Willow/Buffy several times, again finding deaf ears greeting my ramblings about how things could have worked out for those pairings if only...and don't even get me started on what greeted my thoughts on Willow/Angelus/Spike, which definitely fueled some story ideas. When I added Drusilla to that picture, well, I think some of my friends thought I really needed to get out more. When Faith arrived in Season 3, I was again caught up in how perfectly wonderful she and Willow would be together. With the discovery of fan fic, I realized that I not alone. That there were many, many people in the world that could see the same ships as I could, that enjoyed the possibilities, that liked thinking about the 'what ifs...' as much as I did.

A few months went by and I had read many wonderful Willow/Spike fics as well as numerous Willow/Angel and Willow/Spike/Angel. I discovered the mailing lists and the many talented authors that posted their work. I was intrigued at the idea of writing my own story, but never imagined actually being brave enough to sit down and write out an idea and post it. I am majorly insecure and just didn't think I'd ever get the nerve to try writing, instead deciding to just enjoy the work that was posted by others. During this time, the Willow/Spike community was rather small. There was some great fic out there, but it wasn't long before I had read the majority of what I could find. The idea of writing my own fic kept nagging at me, but again with the insecurity. I got an idea, though, that wouldn't go away. It kept popping up when I was working, developing as I drove to and from work, pretty much nagging at me to write it. It was October. I was working and had everything finished. I was sitting in my office, a bit bored, wondering how I was going to spend the last three hours of my day. Without even realizing it, I got out a notebook and a pen. I started writing my idea, and Dreams was born.

By the time I left work, I had several pages written. I went home and typed up what I had, nearly deleting it because I was convinced that it was horrid and that no one would read it and that it was just a waste of time. For once, I decided what the heck and posted that first part. By this time, I'd been thinking about the story for weeks, having worked out a fic that had the possibility of becoming a series. I could see things happening at points in the future, knowing I'd need parts in between for anything to make sense. I decided I'd post part one and see what happened. If I didn't hear from anyone, I'd just finish the story in my head and be done with it all. Charity was the first person that I received feedback from. Not only did she send me very encouraging feedback, but she also asked if she could archive my fic. I confess that I pinched myself to make sure it wasn't a dream. I mean, she'd enjoyed what I had written *AND* she wanted to archive it? I said yes, of course, and bounced around like a twit with a goofy smile on my face, pleased that someone had actually read my words.

That was the beginning for me. Dreams became the first part of the Secrets, Surprises and Eternal Love epic. I ended up brancing out and writing Stolen Moments, the Willow/Angelus series that eventually brought Spike into the relationship. As time passed, my love affair with Spike/Willow flourished. I created InellWillowFic so that I would have somewhere to post all of my fics, where I could write the ships that weren't on the others lists. Since then, I've written Willow/Buffy, Willow/Cordelia, Willow/Faith, Willow/Drusilla, Willow/Graham, Willow/Lindsey, Willow/Xander, Willow/Darla and even a Willow/Doyle and Willow/Riley...I created Willow/Spike/Angel/Cordelia because I found myself really liking the idea of a relationship between the four of them....I've written threesomes with Willow/Spike/Other....but my favorite ship is still Willow/Spike.

Since that first part that I posted back in October 1999, I've written several hundred fics and series. As is rather obvious, Willow appears in all but a very small handful. It might seem strange, since Spike is obviously tied as my favorite character. Confession time: I really do not like writing or reading Spike paired with anyone other than Willow or as part of a relationship with Willow also included (okay...even then he tends to not really be too keen on the other participant) though I can tolerate him being involved with Angel(us). It's a quirk, but I'm not complaining. Hopefully, none of my readers are, either.

If it's not obvious, I love writing fan fiction. I love happy endings and romance and sharing my thoughts and ideas with others. I have been writing since 1999 and have no plans to stop as long as there are people out there reading and the ideas continue to flow. I try my best to write fic that is as original as possible, unpredictable, sexy, fun, and enjoyable. Sure, it scares me to death every single time I post, but I love writing and being part of the community so I deal with the fear and insecurity. I guess I should talk about something other than writing and fic, but that is such a large part of my life that I honestly don't have that much else to talk about. I'm single, live in Fort Worth, Texas, love to travel whenever possible, enjoy movies and music , and was born in February 1976. I believe in destiny and fate, am a complete romantic at heart even if I am a bit cynical and sarcastic most the time, enjoying meeting new people (even if I have a tendency to be shy in real life until I know someone and then they just wish they could get me to shut up!), and I have a job now that allows me much more freedom and time so that I can update regularly and continue working on what I love so much: writing fan fiction.

When GBG asked me to write a bio for the fanlisting, I didn't know what exactly to say. I appreciate her so much for creating this fan listing for me, surprising me with it and just saying such nice things about me and my work. She is the best, pure and simple, for taking her enjoyment of her favorite authors' fic and creating these fan listings to show her appreciation for all their hard work and talent. I don't know if I deserve one, personally, but I accept it gratefully and sincerely hope that she knows how much this means to me! I do apologize if I've rambled. I love talking about writing and about the ships that I adore. I enjoy receiving feedback from readers that tell me that they had never considered a ship being possible until reading one of my fics and now they really enjoy it or that they have always hated this character or that until they read one of my fics and now consider them a favorite or that finding an update from me made them smile. I know that the worst day I am having can be brightened when I receive feedback, so it means a lot that my words can cause a similar reaction to my readers. This fan listing was a complete surprise and I'm touched that it was created. I still have the same insecurity when I post now that I had the first day that I posted Dreams, so I find it hard to believe sometimes that there are people out there in the community that know who I am and have read my work and enjoyed it and have discussed me with other readers.

Don't get me wrong, I love that idea and pinch myself nearly every day when I receive even one piece of feedback simply asking for more. Being nominated for an award is an unbelievable rush, winning one makes me speechless. I've made so many wonderful friends in the fic community, meeting people that inspire me and motivate me and just make me so happy that I took a chance that first day and posted. A few hundred fics later, and I'm still enjoying it so much and coming up with new ideas and developing as a writer. Hopefully, y'all are enjoying what I'm writing and want more. Until next time, dear readers, enjoy this fan listing that GBG has so wonderfully created and feel free to drop me a note anytime as I do love hearing from you all.

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